Work in Progress

My production is in a bad way, but the low pressure has me lazing around.
I feel like the approach of “finish one stage completely before moving to the next” doesn’t suit me.
Someone I showed my progress to said, “The previous one was better,”
but I didn’t feel I understood the previous version myself, so even if something I don’t really understand got praised, it wouldn’t feel like much, and I wasn’t shaken.
But that person had praised the previous version a lot, so I thought, “Sorry.”

I ran out of apricot oil and tried something called a camellia oil hair cream, which made my hair stiff and squeaky, and I’m annoyed.
I went to the hair salon for the first time in three months. I’m growing my hair out, so I only had it tidied up, and of course it barely changed, so I’ve decided to forget I ever went.
I read in a book that models with short hair go every two weeks. That might be fine if your hairstyle is defined enough to want to maintain it, but with a vague hairstyle like mine, the way home from “getting it tidied up” feels empty.
Once it grows out a bit I long for a well-kept short cut, and once I cut it I long for long hair. I’ve been repeating that loop, but considering the years it takes to grow, I can’t have long hair that many times, so this time for sure…